Should Be
Blogs, I suppose, should be sort of fun and interesting. If you have lots of pretty places and things to take pictures of, blogs are a way to share them. If you have warm stories and projects in the works or completed, you can share them, too.
I try, but often fail, to not let this blog devolve into a septic mess of grievance and wailing and tears. But my life is my life.
I am inexpressibly sad and hopeless and at sea right now. Not suicidal --- let's get that out of the way. But I am low. I have been sitting in this spot on this couch all day and doing nothing. Literally not a single thing. Just sitting here. Staring at nothing. Rising only to take Tap out. The weight of this gloom will not let me move, or come up with a reason to move. I don't have many days left in my life, and this is how this onc has gone. Sheesh.
Comments
https://www.ted.com/talks/adam_grant_how_to_stop_languishing_and_start_finding_flow
(I used the handy button to read the transcript instead of listening)
It's for those of us who are in the place that you have described so well. I don't know if it helps you to know that others are in the same place but it did me. Languishing. I hope you can find a way to move to another place even if only for a while.
So take it easy and just know that we get it. And it's [sadly] part of our lives. And if you are going out with Tap, you are directly making one other creature's life enjoyable.
Baby steps, you know?