hand eye crafts

I'm still inching my way through and around the closet in Briton's room.  Yesterday, I found his baby album and scrapbook.  The first had this in it: Spence Family Reunion, 1989.
I was going to post it on Facebook today, for the two mothers it shows, but since it doesn't have Hannah in it, I decided not to.  Things are so perilous between us right now, there's no need to give her something she thinks she can turn into "you'like-Briton-more-than-me" ammunition.
Briton was obviously, at this point, sick and tired of having his picture taken. that day  This I'll-look-a-different-way-than-everyone-else in a photo actually became a go-to bit with us.  All of us: him, me, Hannah.
He and I are the only people in this photo who are still alive.  That hit a little heavy.

Knowing that I will one day leave this house, I am forever packing up boxes of things I want to take with me.  This week, the work has been in Briton's closet.  That's where, for all these years, the baby clothes of his and Hannah's that I'm saving have been kept.  Going through them has been such fun, and so sweet, and has stirred all kinds of memories.  How were they ever that small?
In amongst the onesies and 101 Dalmatians dresses (Hannah had a LOT of 101 Dalmatians clothes), I found some handknits.
I clearly remember knitting this;  I was pregnant with Briton.  We didn't know for sure whether we were having a boy or a girl, and I thought the color and pattern would work for either.  I know Briton wore it, but I don't remember Hannah ever putting it on.
This would have been made for Hannah.  See, I've always been a sucker for speckled yarn.
These are the same pattern and the same size, though it looks like my mother made the green one.  I definitely kn…

At Kroger this afternoon, waiting to pick up my ClickList order, I watched an older little woman toddle up and begin looking over all the Spring plants on the sidewalk.  She was inspecting them carefully, checking price tags, and it occurred to me, "Why are older women mesmerized by plants?"  Is it just a Southern thing, or does it happen everywhere? 
She reminded me of my aunt, who called all plants "flowers."  My mother always said she (my aunt) could grow anything and keep anything alive.   (Also, Daddy called her "Miss F," for "FBI," because she could find anything anyone was ever looking for.)
This probably is a Southern thing: I grew up pronouncing "aunt" "aint."  As in, "Aint Louise is on the phone for you."  That pronunciation was only used when using their names.  In other instances, like talking about them to someone, "aunt" was "aunt."
I also grew up saying "cain't" for …

It ends okay.  Don't worry.
Tap bolted out of the house Saturday morning.  We live on the corner of one of the busiest streets in Athens, --- did I mention it was a Saturday morning? --- and when I saw him headed that way, I was sure I was going to lose him.  He disappeared down the little rise from our house to the road,  and went right, the direction we take when we go on a walk.  I know you aren't supposed to run after runaway dogs, and you aren't supposed to yell their names, because that only spooks them more.  But how do you not?
I got within sight of him when he was maybe three steps from going out onto the road.  Bent down, clapped my hands, said, "C'mon, buddy" as calmly as I could, and he came.  I gathered him up, lurched back up the hill, and came inside.  It took me several --- several --- minutes to get my breathing and my heartbeat back to normal.  Whether he realized what had gone wrong is anyone's guess.
Now here's the funny part.
My …

Sitting on the back porch working on this
I looked up and out at our enormous fig tree and saw this very surprised face with arms raised in horror?  Jubilation?  Anticipation of a hug?
The large color was being made for one purpose, but I decided  I wanted to keep it for myself.  The color suddenly hit me one day as a butterscotch/caramel/buttery toffee kind of hue, and I wasn't willing to let it go.
Headaches have been really bad this week.  I've used everything from "regular" OTC pain relievers so homeopathy to compresses to vaporizers to Chinese herbs.  Nothing.  A couple of people have suggested I try CBD oil;  after a week like this, that becomes an extremely real possibility.

"Imponderable" mans "unable to be pondered," right?  So no question is imponderable.  It may be "unanswerable," of course.
Go back and change all those book titles is what I'm getting at.
Why can't I land on a project?  Any project: knitting, reading, embroidery  Nothing is satisfying.  It bothers me more with books than crafts for some reason.  Hopefully, something will fit right soon.
Isn't this brilliant?  And so very obvious.  Why haven't I seen this/thought of this before?