It is almost beyond my own ability to comprehend that I cannot seem to get to Nashville. There is no job keeping me here. The only thing I have on my calendar is therapy one day a week. And yet, every single time I think a chance has opened up, something else arises that means I either can't go at all, or could speed up and stay for maybe 2 days before I'd need to get back here. Briton has a show opening. Hannah wants to come home. Hannah has to come home for a doctor's appointment. Briton can't look after the animals because of work and rehearsal schedules.
I am looking at the last week of April right now. But I have a sneaking suspicion that will turn into the week that Hannah finishes school and will need help moving back.
I know, I know, all I need to do is put my foot down and say, "I'm going. Work out your stuff on your own."
But it's hard to say that when you're a mom.
And when the thought of going back to that house ties your stomach into acid-soaked knots.