Saturday, March 9, 2013

Very Sick

Right now, I am going through as bad an emotional spell as I have since I was suicidal.  No hope, no energy, constant worry.

I don't want to lay it off on the acupuncture, but after each session I've had, I've been immobilized --- the first time by physical pain, this time by emotional.  I just stare straight ahead, unable to move, unable to find a reason to move.

And blogging about it is iffy, as I already feel that I've scared away friends who had once stood steadfastly by me, but lately, have been nowhere to be found.  If I were crying wolf, I'd get it.  

But I'm not.

3 comments:

  1. Have you asked the acupuncturist if your reactions are normal? Does s/he have any suggestions? Because it doesn't seem like it should be doing that.

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  2. I wish there was something I could do or say that would help. I won't presume to know how you are feeling - just know that I do care.

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  3. Nah, we'd still abandon you if you were making it all up.

    You know that thinking like that is part of your symptoms, right? Not that *that* flashy insight will do much good. Anyway, I've been keeping you in my thoughts but I'm pretty much MIA from everything until tax season is over.

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