It is 11:57 PM, I have taken SEVEN Klonopin, and sleep is not in sight. That is double the dose I am supposed to take. I'd take more, but that seems a little dangerous, and I am so awake now, I doubt it would help.
I am angry, and I am in pain, and I want to lash out at people in my anger, and I want them to hurt like I hurt. Because they don't seem to care right now. My son and I had a SCREAMING telephone call this afternoon, and I'm willing to bet when it was over, he went back to playing video games or whatever he was doing and never gave it a second thought.
My daughter spent all day in her room, until friends came to take her our for pizza. We've said maybe 8 words all day. I've got plenty of things I could yell at her.
Why am I so angry? Where is this consuming rage coming from? I just want to smack everybody down. I'm being cruel to our pets, I'm throwing things --- I don't have any control.
I lost my mind once this year. Is it happening again, only in a different way?