Sunday, November 23, 2014


Thank you, thank you all for your kind words.  Sitting alone with yourself makes what Depression says to you even louder.   Today has been a chilly, rainy day, which doesn't deepen The Bad.  I like rain.

Also helpful is knitting with Noro;  the smooth color changes are soothing.

Friday, November 21, 2014


For no apparent reason, and without any warning, the floor sort of dropped out from under me today.  It feels like every medication I've taken, and every step forward because of therapy have been for naught.  Hopelessness has sucker-punched me in the gut.

Thursday, November 20, 2014


Time well-spent today: watching "The Verdict":
I hadn't seen in quite a while.  It still holds up.  Exquisite performances by everyone in the cast.  If you haven't seen it, I can't recommend it too highly.

On a supremely shallow level, there's also The Moment That Paul Newman Looked His Best On Film:

Line that up against The Moment That Robert Redford Looked His Best On Film:

You'll get something a little like this:

I'm trying to knit things for the etsy store.  Today has been "small items" day --- pet toys, bangle bracelets, hats.  I feel pretty productive.

Even with that and Newman, I will still gripe about my latest medication not working.  When I go to the psychiatrist's next week, there will, undoubtedly, be another prescription to try.  I hate to see January coming, when my new deductible has to start all over.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

'TIS Here!

My package from Bridget!  It actually arrived yesterday, but several crises were lined up at that time, and it had to wait its turn.

From top to bottom: Tablet
How cute is that?  And quite Bridget-y.

Then: Initial
Lovely, lovely note cards with beautiful purple envelopes.

Last: Seasonal
Look at those little hats!  Could they be any cuter?  They make me want to start decorating for Christmas!

So, thank you to Bridget, and to everyone who participated in 'TIS.  I'm thinking the next group project will the travelling scarf I mentioned a few days back.

There is still a lot of emotional energy being expended over my daughter.  Hopefully, things will level out for her soon, and stay that way.  At least for a while.